Sunday, February 4, 2007

Picturing the Beet

I feel you kicking inside me now, frequently, and with insistence. I think about you in most moments. Finally, I am comfortable now in this time, with you inside me and part of me.
I want you to keep growing and moving towards your birth, but I'm afraid I won't know what to do with you when you are here. Right now, my body knows how to care for you and I can't get in the way.
The day your father and I saw you for the first time....I will not forget. Your father didn't let go of my hand the whole time. There was a flat screen monitor in front of us, on the wall, and when you showed up on the screen, the image of you took my breath right away. You are adorable, my little baby boy, with all of your fingers and toes. You have already filled my thoughts with more joy than I ever thought possible.

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